The hectic Life

Life moves so fast sometimes that it’s hard to grasp a moment and truly enjoy it fully. It’s been pretty hectic at the moment so haven’t really had the time to update this, it also doesn’t help that I’ve had no internet connection for a while.

New life just started with a new degree course and everything and on top of that so many birthdays. Try planning a surprise birthday party! Believe me it’s not as easy as it sounds. You would think that getting the preparation e.g. the place booked will be the hard part but nope the difficulty lies with the guest. I guess we are all human being and not the most reliable creatures in the world. But I don’t understand why you would say yes that you’re coming to an event but actually have no intentions of attending...especially when you know the person organising the event needs to book the place out. It’s understandable that something unexpected comes up and you cannot make it but I’ve heard some rather silly excuses. It was one stressful experience but there is the great satisfaction that comes at the end when everything turns out great. It just makes everything worth the effort.

At the beginning I decided that I will make some rules well something like rules that I need to follow. One of these so call rules was to keep up with my work and it was going so well until I fell ill. And boy did I fall ill and now I’m finding it hard to get my motivation back! But so need to start working hard or I’ll end up failing and that will be the end of this dream.
One of the worst experiences is to have your dreams break right in front of your eyes. It’s one dreadful pain that turns more into a consent aching feeling. To be about to break out of this pain is what make you a better person, sometimes this pain vanishes all together but mostly it stays with you as a numb pain that is only enlightened in certain event. To be about to live with this, is what makes a strong person. Some people just break and except defeat and it saddens me to think that you would destroy your life for one event. At that certain point it might seem like the end of the world but there is always light at the end of the tunnel, you just have to make your way to the end.

There have been many terrible events in my life but in them times you need to look at the bright side and live your life.... One such event has happened very close to me where a person took their own life and just over a degree course...there is much more out there then just education...

With that thought I’ll leave you...

XxX

Introduction and all

A person’s live is like a book with many chapters and within them chapters are many sub chapters that all intertwine. Sometime you can sit down and acknowledge that yes one chapter of your life has just ended and another is just starting but there are times that you move into another chapter of your life without actually acknowledging it. I for one will be starting a new chapter in my life very soon and I am hoping that this time it will be a successful chapter.

You all probably thinking that this is a weird way to start a blog but I haven’t really decided what I’m going to write about, am I going to write about my life or about my thoughts? I guess time will tell, maybe it will be a combination of both. I’ve always wanted to write and keep up with a blog but never really achieved this; it’s my friend that convinced me to start this one...

Human beings can be complex emotional beings whom are sometimes very hard to understand, to be honest I don’t really understand myself let alone anyone else. So don’t really know how to introduce myself to you. I would like to say that I don’t trust people easily but to be honest I do trust people maybe far too much, because when I start trusting I give you my full trust. So this leaves me open to hurt easily. You hardly see me crying but no way does that mean I don’t cry, just not in front of people.

I ended up asking one of my friend to describe me and this is the response I got “You always take things easily and knows how to tackle a situation by giving a 'don't care' answer” “but I also have the feel that you get hurt easily” “and you are very caring” “you don’t always feel proud of yourself” “you don’t know the value of yourself and don’t realise how much you are loved”

I do agree with some of them comments but others I’m not too sure about. So I’ll let you decide yourself after reading the other post that I’ll hopefully write.

I think that enough of an introduction and enough of confusing you. Thank you for reading and hopefully I’ll keep up with this blog.


XxX